Good morning, I literally asked God what He wanted me to post today. I give Him all the glory and the honor for where I am and what I’ve been able to accomplish. I promise I would not be here if it weren’t for God’s mercy and His grace. Yesterday, I was getting ready to leave out the door when UPS arrived, and there they were – the paperback copies of my book. I’m overwhelmed with gratitude and extremely humbled. This is just more confirmation that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us! I hope you enjoy this snippet.
“I could hear his heartbeat, feel him breathing, and I knew that I wasn’t ready to let him go. I just didn’t know how to keep him. We loved each other, but could our new love handle this? I didn’t know if I was strong enough to wait it out until they got divorced. I didn’t know if I was OK with being the reason they got divorced. My parents are married. I believe in what marriage stands for. I know how sacred marriage is to God. What would that make me if I were the cause of breaking God’s union? I’m sure Pastor Mosley would have lots to say about this.”
I have a testimony. In 2009 I started writing a book. It started as a joke. My aunt and I were talking about relationships we’d been in, in our lives and I started to tell her about one of mine that almost killed me. We’d gotten pretty emotional during our talk, but by the end we’d found a way to laugh at ourselves. In our laughter I said to her, “I should write a book about it.” She said, “Girl, please write that book because I want to read it.” Later that night, I went in my room, logged on to my computer, and started typing.
Seven years later, that book is coming out. It took seven years because God had to do so much work on me first. I had to relive a lot of horrible memories and I had to truly be delivered from all of that pain before I subjected myself to the world. Not only had I had to forgive myself and all the parties involved I had to find God in the story. I had to really see His work through my suffering – and I finally did. After three re-writes, three drafts, three editors and a final review, God finally got the glory out of my story.
Now, of course, I had to also fictionalize the story. Although I must admit the first draft was raw and almost identical to the real life version, but after a lot of work it is finally a work of fiction, however, it is based off of real life heartache and struggle that many people face everyday. I pray that someone who reads it will find their own deliverance. That’s my prayer, that someone can be saved and heal from my testimony, my story. I know that it is possible, I’ve lived it. Now all I can do is give God the glory and thank Him for rescuing me out of my darkest moments.
As promised I said I would be posting my overview of my new video documentary series “Voyage to Oprah’s Couch”. I am very excited about this video series more so because I have been keeping a diary or journal since I was very young and there are so many things inside of those journals that I know other’s can relate to, especially entrepreneurs! The daily grind to accomplishing your dreams can be gruesome and many times just plain hilarious so why not share it with others so they can see it happens to the best of us.
In these videos I will be disclosing many intimate details about myself that I don’t usually let everyone in on like my struggle with weight loss, going to work at my 9 to 5, my “shoe crazy” addiction and going back to school while balancing being a small business owner, author, actress, performer and writer…YA! It gets crazy but I am going to share it all with you. This is my journey on my “Voyage to Oprah’s Couch”!
Special thank you to my cousin Patrice and my sweety HJ for helping me put together this video.
(Don’t laugh at my apparent speech impediment “I’d been” LOL. Bloopers coming soon. It is ridiculous how many times I did this video to get it right.)