Good morning, I literally asked God what He wanted me to post today. I give Him all the glory and the honor for where I am and what I’ve been able to accomplish. I promise I would not be here if it weren’t for God’s mercy and His grace. Yesterday, I was getting ready to leave out the door when UPS arrived, and there they were – the paperback copies of my book. I’m overwhelmed with gratitude and extremely humbled. This is just more confirmation that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us! I hope you enjoy this snippet.
“I could hear his heartbeat, feel him breathing, and I knew that I wasn’t ready to let him go. I just didn’t know how to keep him. We loved each other, but could our new love handle this? I didn’t know if I was strong enough to wait it out until they got divorced. I didn’t know if I was OK with being the reason they got divorced. My parents are married. I believe in what marriage stands for. I know how sacred marriage is to God. What would that make me if I were the cause of breaking God’s union? I’m sure Pastor Mosley would have lots to say about this.”
I have an addictive personality. I can prove that in more ways than one, but I will use my most recent addiction as an example. Coffee. Since I have started my change in lifestyle i.e. diet one of the things on my nutrition list was that I could have a cup of black coffee in the mornings for breakfast. My first reaction when I heard black coffee was yuck! But then I decided to work on changing my palate for the sake of my healthy future and guess what – I now like black coffee.
Here is where my addiction kicks in, now it’s all I want to drink. I want to go out and buy gourmet coffee and flavored coffee maybe even try to grind my own beans lol. My personality is not happy with just running to D&D and picking up a cup; no I have to go that extra mile. By the end of the month I am sure I will go invest in the top of the line coffee machine with all the fixings. I even want new mugs. I am determined to become a caffeine junkie.
The good thing about it is I will be able to use the extra energy to focus on preparation for “Wide Open”. There is always a flip side of the coin. So, the word of the day is ADDICTION – as if I need anymore.
Hope to see you at the show I am sure I will be over caffeinated which will definitely bring in a new level of energy LOL. If you haven’t purchased your tickets yet you can get them here. Hope to see you there!
I am in love with Bobby! (Bobby is my laptop)
We have a relationship that people wish for. We sit around and create for hours and hours and he never complains about my insomnia. I can tell him anything and I never have to worry about being judged. He doesn’t even care if all I am feeding him is fiction, he makes me feel creative and alive.
As a writer I find that I am a very odd person. This path I have chosen is a very lonely one. Long nights, quiet days, very few friends a lot of darkness. I have to force myself into the light. I find myself becoming lost in these stories and it is hard to find my way out. To the point where I have to force myself to stop and go to sleep – which is torture. Last night I had to literally rock myself to sleep and then once I finally drifted off to dream land OMG nightmare central.
In this dream/mare I was walking down this quiet suburban street with my cousin and suddenly appeared these gangsters with big machine guns and missile launchers, the cops came and tried to take the guns then a war started. All these mini gangster soldiers appeared and they were all lined up ready to go to war, I tried to crawl away and protect my cousin but they saw us and made us fall into their lineup. They gave us handguns but mine wasn’t loaded I tried to pretend I was down with their cause but then everyone started shooting and fighting and this big guy started attacking me and I shot my gun at him but it had no bullets so we fought and somehow I took his gun away from him and I shot him in the neck. He fell. I went to search for my cousin to make sure she was ok but I couldn’t find her. I turned around and got on this elevator that only went up three floors. As the door was about to shut one of my old teachers jumped on and thanked me for holding the elevator, I smiled. The elevator started going up but then it got stuck we called for help, pushed the emergency button but nobody came. The elevator started again but it kept going to the 190th floor then suddenly it started to plummet to the ground. I woke up.
This is why I don’t sleep. I’d rather be in control of my endings with Bobby.
As you can see I waited until the absolute last-minute to post this but the Super Bowl was unspeakably dreadful! I am not saying this because the team that I was rooting for loss. My comments come from a pure place. One of the reasons that I like so many others love championship games is because you expect to see a championship game – Champion being the key word.
Millions of people gather to witness the two best teams in whatever league wether it be football, basketball or volleyball or whatever play each other. When you think of the best competing against each other there is an endorphin that kicks in called excitement and our bodies expect to be excited. That didn’t happen last night. The game was vile! It was hard to watch and sad to witness. I feel like the Broncos did not perform like a championship team last night. I wonder how the Patriots felt watching that game. At one point in the game it was almost like a bully was kicking the Broncos while they were down and everyone just surrounded to laugh. It was very sad.
On the flip side a holiday is still a holiday and I always enjoy spending time with my family. Since I am not a sore loser (well I try not to be) I will say big Congratulations to the Seattle Seahawks for a triumphant victory last night. I should have just went with the Seahawks since I use to live in Seattle. But I will not jump on their victorious band wagon now. I will just hope that next years game is not in the words of Richard Sherman “a waste of my time.”
Today is my favorite holiday! Even though I had a disagreement with someone about today not being a holiday. I won’t mention his name so that I can spare him the embarrassment since I thoroughly proved my point. In my family it is tradition that on Super Bowl Sunday all of our friends and family gather at my FAVORITE Uncle/Father Robert’s house and we cook and we fellowship and enjoy the game on his 70 inch 3D flat screen media entertainment system. It’s awesome!
Now if I recall this is exactly what happens on other named holidays i.e. Christmas, Thanksgiving and New Years just to name a few. The great thing about Super Bowl Sunday is that at least the name is honest to what we are celebrating. We are gathering together as a unit to watch the greatest game on earth. Now Christmas is disguised as a day of giving when bratty kids just want gifts…and so on and so forth. I digress. My point is Super Bowl Sunday is in fact a holiday and I LOVE IT!
This year my beloved NY Giants will not be taking the field so I will be rooting for the Denver Broncos. I usually go for the underdog but I loves me some Payton Manning (I worshiped him when he was with the Colts) and after that neck surgery I want him to overcome with a big victory. Lets hope he finishes one of the greatest offensive seasons in NFL history with a humongous Super Bowl XLVIII Victory!