Today is the first day of my third trimester and I am still rocking my heels. I have been told that it’s time to give my heels up for months, but my heels and I have a plan, we are strutting our stuff all the way to the delivery room. Ok, maybe not the delivery room, however, I’m not ready to give my heels up yet. If my body hasn’t rejected them why should I? At seven months pregnant, my body has done a lot of growing. There are times when I don’t even want to look at myself in the mirror but my feet are not swollen, my legs have not given out and my heels remain faithful. They make me feel good and that’s enough reason for me to keep wearing them.
For Christmas my sister-in-law gave me a mug that says, “The higher the heels, the closer to heaven.” I believe this quote. My heels lift my spirit. I don’t want to sound shallow, but any woman who has ever ever been pregnant can tell you, there are not too many clothing options that make you feel good. So if you find one, you hold on to it. I’ve made a pact with my body. Every inch of you can grow, just not my feet. And believe me, my body has held up to its end of the bargain because it has not let up on any other limb, down to my fingers. I can’t even wear my wedding rings anymore, and let’s not get started on my pants…ugh.
It’s ok though. I’ve pre-paid for my personal trainer and I plan on snapping back to my goal weight as soon as possible. When I do that the last thing I need is to have to invest in bigger shoes. I have already invested so much into my shoe collection it would be a total devastation to have to start all over. So please pray for me. The one thing I’ve asked God for, other than a healthy baby and natural delivery is to keep my perfect size sevens. Now, that’s not too much to ask for…is it?
For at least the last 5 years I have had a theme song for my life, which was, How Did You Get Here, by Deborah Cox. This was my theme song because in so many instances I’d found myself in situations where I would be asking that question. Sometimes it was a relationship others a business decision or any other random thing that may have been going wrong. It was rarely compared to any of the many successes that I’ve had.
In the last couple of months I’ve found that I haven’t been hearing that song in my head anymore. The song that has taken its place is a gospel song called, Moving Forward. The opening lyrics to the song are…
I’m not going back…I’m moving ahead…I’m here to declare to you…My past is over…In you…Things are made new…Surrender my life to Christ…I’m moving, moving forward…
Even though I’ve always been very vocal about my relationship with God and yes this song is a gospel song this song being the new theme song for my life has to do not only with my always growing relationship with God but it also has to do with my new mindset on life as a whole.
At some point there was a change in me on how I viewed my life, relationships and the situations I found myself in. My entire perspective has become more positive. I’ve always been the one to practice what I preached but honestly it is not always easy being positive especially in a life as risky as mine where I am always taking chances with entrepreneurship, following a childhood dream or putting my heart on the line in love. Those risks can easily have you asking yourself, “How did you get here.”
Finally I am in a place where I can accept my journey and how I got to where I am today. I realize that everything that I’ve been through was necessary for where I am now and especially for where I am going. I understand that having imperfections actually make you perfect. The story of my life has become the foundation of my career as a writer and without that story then I have no idea where I would be today. I’ve learned so much! I have grown so much and continue to make major strides to becoming the woman I see in my dreams and now I know like never before the only way I will ever look at her in the mirror is to continue Moving Forward no matter what life throws at me, I’m not going back, I’m moving ahead…I’m moving, moving forward!
Any entrepreneur knows that we don’t get to take days off. Today was a big day for me I had a deadline that I was dead set on hitting but life threw in a curve ball. I caught some kind of stomach virus that had me down all day. I don’t even have to tell you how much that annoyed me. Now I will be killing myself tonight to try to reach that goal. I am so frustrated.
So with that, I don’t have much else to write about today, I have to get back to work. Good luck to all of you out there fighting to reach your goals.
I love my life! As much as I love it I just realized I am falling head over hills in love with my life! I am so blessed I can’t even keep up with my thank you’s and gratitudes. God is great! I’m watching things evolve around me. I looked up this morning and let me just tell you I love spring mornings. They are so wonderful. The air is so crisp and clean, the sun is shining bright before 6am, the birds are chirping, trees are blooming I am totally obsessed with spring mornings. I wish it could be spring all year.
On top of all the wonderful natural beauties of life, I am more focused then I have ever been. Trust me, I didn’t think I could become more focused then I already was but I am so dead set on my goals. Everyday is new and everyday I am making and breaking goals that I set for myself. I am so proud of decisions that I made to get me here. Sometimes it takes for you to go through a storm to understand and appreciate the calm and sit in the light looking into the sun with your eye’s wide open avoiding the squint because you are just ecstatic that it is out. I am looking forward to what’s next and all that life has to offer. I feel good!
You all know how mentally challenged I am when it comes to getting on board with social media. I mean it took me 4 years to attempt to figure out how to use twitter and I’m still really not that good at it. Well, I have finally got on the instagram wave and let me just say “I love it!!”
I am completely obsessed with this new social media because as much as I love to write believe it or not sometimes I am at a loss for words and with instagram now I can catch those moments in a snap shot. It is possibly the best networking app yet if you ask me. I have only been on it for about a month now but I have quickly found many of the features and bonus apps that make it even more awesome. I know I sound like a big dork right now but it’s OK, I really am an advocate for instagram. They should make me a spokes person LOL.
If you don’t have it I suggest you get it because like they say, “A picture is worth a thousand words.” LOL Catch me on instagram @reneevisions to follow all my crazy adventures that I am to lazy to write about, just kidding. But seriously check it out.