#MAMMW Final Leaked Passage

There is only one week until Me & My Man’s Wife finally hits the stands. I wish I could say I’m excited but I’ve been so busy I haven’t had time to really let it sink in. There have been moments that I felt some joy over what’s happening, but I don’t think I will really get to bask in it until after the release. With that said, I hope someone out there is excited for me and is enjoying these little snippets. Today I am going to leak a little more to hopefully really peak your interest, if I haven’t done so already. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you taking this journey with me! Thank you! See you next week.

Final Leaked Passage #MAMMW

I wasn’t ten feet away from the building when I ran right into Terren. We both froze when we saw each other. I decided to keep walking to avoid confrontation. “Casey,” Terren called out behind me. I stopped, took a deep breath, and turned around to face her. “Listen, I really don’t want any problems, Terren.”

“I don’t want any problems either. I just want my husband back.”

“Oh my God!” I said throwing my arms in the air in surrender. “How many times are we going to do this song and dance?” I shouted.

“I’m tired Casey! My kids are tired! Do you have any idea what this has done to our family?”

“Terren, why do you think I have so much power over August? I’m not holding him hostage.”

“Casey, you are the woman in the relationship, you have all the power. He can only do what you allow him to do.”

“Terren, I don’t have the power. I am powerless when it comes to August. Please tell me how to stay away from him, please.”

“Just tell him to go home,” she said casually.

“If it were that simple, girl, then he would’ve been back a long time ago.” I laughed.

“No, you have to say it and mean it.”

“Say it and mean it. I got it,” I said sarcastically. “Let me go do that right now.”

“Casey, this is not a joke. My children need their father to come home, I’m begging you, because I’m desperate now, I’ve run out of ideas on how to keep him, and frankly, I’m beginning to think I’m going crazy. I’m losing it Casey, please help me, please.”

I shook my head. “Fine, Terren. I don’t know how, but I’ll take care of it.”

“Casey, I understand the hold he has on you. He has it on my too, but we have to help each other. If we both stand together on the same team, we can get him to do the right thing. Can we be a team now instead of fighting each other?”

I was completely caught off guard and all out of clever remarks so I agreed, “Sure Terren, we can be a team.”

She looked defeated. “Thank you,” she said then continued towards her car. When she got in, I noticed her kids were inside. As she drove off, her son turned around and looked out the window at me. The sadness on his face destroyed me. I knew that Terren’s plea was out of pure desperation. She didn’t want to beg me to leave her husband alone, she didn’t even want to ask me to help her, but she had to, for her children.

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Courage…

Courage by definition is: (also bravery, boldness, fearlessness, mettle, fortitude, or intrepidity) is the ability to confront fear, pain, danger, uncertainty, or intimidation.

With all the things I’ve done in my life (and there have been a few), I believe “Outside Myself” will be the most courageous! Here’s the thing about courage, it is a decision you make. You can decide to be weak, timid and shy. You can decide to be dishonest, modest or hide and people may never know your name. They may never know you had a story, that you mattered or that you even existed. Courage defy’s all those odds. I defy odds, call me an odd defier…LOL.

But seriously I have courage. I have the courage to look my life in the eye and say Fuck it! I’ve done it, I’ve been there, I’ve lived. And you know what I am stronger for it. I am not going to hide from my story or pretend to be something that I’m not because if it wasn’t for my faults, my falls, my mistakes and wrong turns then where or who would I be? I’m me! This is the skin I was given and I don’t have another to escape in. I can drown in the disasters or swim in the truth. I’ve decided to swim.

“Outside Myself” will dispel all the rumors about me. I’ve heard I’ve got baggage. I laugh, who the hell doesn’t. Show me a perfect person and his name must be Jesus, but who did Jesus hang out with? The sinners, I think we would have been good friends. I can’t wait to do “Outside Myself” because I am finally going to get years of secrets off my chest. I’m finally going to look my mental, physical and emotional molesters in the eyes and say FUCK YOU! Now who’s getting FUCKED? I am so tired of people and their fairy tale renditions of who I am. They can say what they want to about me but one thing will remain the same, I’m a survivor! I never quit and I always win! I wont deny the truth and I have the courage to stand up and say, yes, that was me with no apologies.

I set a limit of 75 seats to this show for a reason, because only people who are supposed to be there will be there. I have done shows where people who hate me come to see me fail. What I learned is that they buy there tickets at the last minute so I am only giving them a small window of opportunity this time. People who love me and honestly want to see me succeed usually buy their tickets first. I pray that theory applies this time. I’m ripping the bandages off and bleeding my heart out in this show. This will be a true display of courage. No turning back now!

“Outside Myself” will include a live band with musical director Dan Larkum on the bass, Brian Larkum on the drums, Brian Riccardi on the keys and Elle Cee as back up vocals. This is going to be so amazing it’s definitely a stretch on my artistic resume. I can’t wait to see it come to life!

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