Family, family, family! That’s what New Year’s was for me. I pretty much spent the entire month of December with my family, and that’s exactly what I wanted. Being pregnant has made me appreciate my family even more. They are such a great support system and I feel so safe and loved when I’m around them. There is nowhere else I’d rather be but in their company.
As I reflect on 2016, I am so grateful for my experiences and accomplishments. I am a person who has high expectations for myself and I take it hard when I don’t meet my personal goals, but I can truly say 2016 was a good year for my career and personal life.
Last year the only goal that I set was to publish my first novel. As happy I am to say that I did that, this year I believe my goals may be a little more ambitious, especially with a baby on the way. So, I’ve decided to share them so that I will be accountable for reaching them.
Here they are:
Restructure, Rebrand, Revamp, By Renee Visions Publishing House & the Shireal Renee brand
Publish the second book to the “Me & My Man’s Wife” trilogy, “Dodging Deliverance”
Enroll in school for my Masters Degree
Buy a big girl car i.e. my dream car
Rewrite, Produce, & Star in “Wide Open”, stage play
Take the books and the play on a national college tour
Balance all these things while being a great mom and wife!
As I’m listing them out achieving all of this seems pretty ambitious and a little unattainable. But my mother always says, “Nothing beats a failure but a try.” Yes, I know it will be difficult and I will probably hate myself at times for trying to do so much, but I know for sure it’s not impossible. With the proper plan and a lot of discipline I can do it. I can do anything.
Besides, it’s not just for me this time. It’s for my son too. I want to be a good example for him. I want him to see that his mom never let anything stand in her way and that he will be able to have anything he wants in this world with hard work and dedication. There are no limits to what he can achieve as long as he keeps God first, stays focused, and doesn’t take no for an answer. I will prove this to him by my actions.
Happy New Year everyone! Make your list out and work through yours with me. Lets make 2017 better than any other year – Remember, nothing beats a failure but a try!
After being up all night again I finally crashed around 9am in a panic. I looked at the calendar and realized that the show is now next week. I started feeling all kinds of nervous. A million questions started to flood my mind and needless to say I fell asleep with a migraine headache. Don’t get me wrong I trust God. When I am on stage I feel completely connected to him so it’s not that I fear failing, I guess I just fear the unknown.
You just never know how a show is going to turn out. It doesn’t matter how many times you’ve done it, every show is always different, the audience, you as a performer, the space, the energy – it’s all different. I guess not being able to know exactly what is going to happen and how it will turn out is getting to me the most. The fact that we haven’t done this show in CT since 2011 is really making me crazy. It may as well have never been done here before. I just want it to be perfect if there is such a thing as a perfect show.
AHHHHHH!!! God help me stay sane for the next 12 days.
This show is in 15 days and today I had an impulse to rewrite the script. Call me crazy but we changed the script 6 days before the show the first time we did it and it turned out phenomenal. I mean of course the story will always remain the same but I’ve grown so the charter has to grow with me. Plus I am a junkie for change so why not make it more exciting to add to the natural rush that I get when I do a show.
Besides “Wide Open” is about deliverance, faith and persevere so if I am not applying those beliefs to my everyday life then I am a hypocrite to be out there on stage encouraging it to others. I have faith that this show is meant for greatness, I will work hard and follow my heart so that I can overcome any obstacle that stands in my way (even if the obstacle is myself), I am committed to this journey because God did not deliver me out of that situation for nothing. He wants me to share my testimony to the world as a witness to how great and powerful he is.
Over the last couple years the team and production of “Wide Open” as evolved immensely. People have come and gone yet there has been some constants that have kept me grounded, humbled and filled with much appreciation. Those people are Maurice Clark and Tarishi “Midnight” Shuler.
I remember when we first auditioned for the cast of “Wide Open” Tarishi and Maurice both auditioned for the role of the leading male which at the time was simply called, Handsome Man. As fate would have it they were both cast, Tarishi being cast as, Handsome Man and Maurice as Choreographer. And let me tell you God’s plan is always greater than your own because each role was meant for them.
Since that day they have been there. These two have been such a support system to me and this project. It is not often that you have people who are put in your life and are truly an asset. These gentleman prove to be just that. I am so fortunate to have them as a part of the team. I don’t know what I would do without them. They have become people who I can depend on and reach out to for matters that have nothing to do with the show. I have been blessed. Our relationships have developed and they are more like brothers to me now. I love them and am so thankful to God for sending them to that audition.
To Mo and Tarishi no matter what path God may take you on know that you changed my life and I am forever grateful. I pray that we have a lifetime of memories, friendship, success and joy ahead. Cheers to you with eternal love.
I have an addictive personality. I can prove that in more ways than one, but I will use my most recent addiction as an example. Coffee. Since I have started my change in lifestyle i.e. diet one of the things on my nutrition list was that I could have a cup of black coffee in the mornings for breakfast. My first reaction when I heard black coffee was yuck! But then I decided to work on changing my palate for the sake of my healthy future and guess what – I now like black coffee.
Here is where my addiction kicks in, now it’s all I want to drink. I want to go out and buy gourmet coffee and flavored coffee maybe even try to grind my own beans lol. My personality is not happy with just running to D&D and picking up a cup; no I have to go that extra mile. By the end of the month I am sure I will go invest in the top of the line coffee machine with all the fixings. I even want new mugs. I am determined to become a caffeine junkie.
The good thing about it is I will be able to use the extra energy to focus on preparation for “Wide Open”. There is always a flip side of the coin. So, the word of the day is ADDICTION – as if I need anymore.
Hope to see you at the show I am sure I will be over caffeinated which will definitely bring in a new level of energy LOL. If you haven’t purchased your tickets yet you can get them here. Hope to see you there!