My Muse

– A woman, or a force personified as a woman, who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist.

With everything that has been going on in my life I have found myself struggling to write for pleasure.  I write everyday for business purposes but to just sit down and update my website or write in my journal I have been falling short – until now.  I found a muse.

My business partner Sheilarenee is my muse.  There is a magic that happens when I am with her.  It’s like creative ideas just start bursting out of me.  She even inspired me to write this because I hadn’t felt compelled to share in so long but I had to share this. She’s awesome!  It is really a blessing when you can talk with someone and you just bounce ideas off of each other; we practically complete each other’s sentences.  It is so great working with her. We sometimes are amazed by our own abilities when we are working on projects for Renee Shopping Services (RSS). We keep each other motivated and pushing forward.

As we break for the holiday I find myself excited to write again. I have some By Renee Visions projects that I need to complete before the New Year and thanks to her I have the motivation to do it now that RSS is all set. For the first time in a long time I feel completely balanced.  I am focused and diligently working towards my goals.  I can see a clear path in front of me; I am staying faithful and trusting what’s ahead as I follow it.  2015 is already set up and I am excited to see what God has in store. Especially now that I have my muse by my side there is no room for failure!

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The Power of Prayer & Positive Thinking

Be relentless in your pursuit for greatness, keep positive, have a great attitude and good things will come your way.

-Food Network

I’ve made some major strides in my businesses over the last couple months. It’s because I have been focusing pretty much all of my energy into them.  Last year I set a goal for myself of transformation.  When I put that goal into the universe I was looking for change in all areas of my life, health, business and relationships. When I reflect back over the last year I can truly say that change has come.

I’ve always believed in the power of prayer and positive thinking.  I will admit I can do better in the prayer department but I am great at positive thinking.  For instance, as of late Renee Shopping Services has picked up a lot of new business and as business grows we find ourselves running into new challenges.  Just the other day something happened at the bank that we weren’t expecting that put my partner and I in a bit of a funk.  That lasted for about ten minutes but we quickly started to talk through the situation and totally spun it in a positive direction. Immediately after that we set an appointment with a new client.  I know this happened because we changed our attitudes, instead of letting that situation spoil the rest of our day we made light of it pressed on and a new connection came about.

There are so many wonderful things happening in my life.  Just that fact that I have life and health is wonderful. The truth is that some situations I’m dealing with right now are not ideal; someone else may think they’re horrible.  But I refuse to think like that.  I am surrounded by family who love and care for me, I am aggressively working towards my goals, living my dreams and taking advantage of every opportunity that comes my way.  I have total faith in God and know that his plan is always so much better than my own. No challenge is too big, no goal too far.  Trust in yourself, trust in God and know you always have something to be thankful for. It could always be worse.

Stay Positive,

S

Live to Love & Love to Live

Day after day I find myself wondering if I am living up to my full potential. Lately my answer has been “No, no I’m not”. Even though I have always prided myself on being a risk taker, an innovator, somewhat fearless and a dream chaser; none of that feels enough now.

Life is changing so much the older I get. The choices that I made in the past are not the same choices I can make now. Things have to make sense even when I am making a choice based on faith. The luxury of risky decision-making done in my youth would now be looked at as careless mistakes. Now, I have to completely change my way of thinking.

So how do I do it? I have decided that I will live to love. Although everything in life is requiring more work and more effort than ever before, I have to love what I do for work. If I am going to dedicate 40-120 hours a week somewhere I have to be completely in love with it. It has to be so fulfilling that it doesn’t seem like work at all. I have to enjoy exercising and eating mouth watering heart healthy meals. I must go outside, spend time with family and friends who support me, and appreciate all life’s gifts. I will only surround myself with people who are adding to my existence, and not waste my time with people who leech off of my creative energy. Everything I do will be in love and in happiness.

I will love to live. Life is so precious. It is the most priceless gift that was ever given. I will take advantage of everyday I am blessed to live. I will make smart decisions and take informed risks. I will dance, sing, run, jump, smile, laugh, and make a fool of myself all in the name of love. I will spread love and I will be loving to everyone I come across because what’s the point in living if you are not living to love and loving to live? Think about it…

Scarface

I apologize for my disappearance from the universe; however I have recently been through some major changes in my life.  I have wanted to share but every time I would attempt I would get brain freeze and couldn’t come up with the right words to say.  Finally, I have mustered up the courage to share something with you that I have been dealing with now for a year.

Last October I had a surgery to remove a keloid that had formed on the lower right side of my chin.  It was a rather large keloid but the position it was in made it easy to cover with makeup, but I always felt self conscience of it. Anyway, I guess as a woman any blemish on your face feels like the worst thing in the world.  So after dealing with it for a few years I’d finally decided to get it removed last year.  I went to my doctor and he recommended me to a plastic surgeon.  As soon as he mentioned plastic surgeon I realized that removing this would be a bit more serious than I originally anticipated.  But because I had already had my heart set on getting it removed I decided to go have a consultation with the surgeon and see what my options were.

After speaking with this seemingly qualified plastic surgeon and him assuring me that removing the keloid would be a pretty simple process under local anesthesia, and I’d be out the same day, I figured that was perfect and scheduled the surgery. Just as he said, everything went according to plan. I was in and out and the scar was removed.  The incision was so tiny you could barely tell anything was ever there.  I was ecstatic.

This lasted for about two months then the scar began to inflate.  It grew and grew until now it looks like I have been sliced across my face.  It is so disgusting. It is big and lumpy and ten times worse than what it looked like before I had it removed. I feel like I have been botched. Now the surgeon is saying I have to get it removed again. I don’t know what to do. I want it gone but what if he removes it again and then it grows back even worse again. Then what am I going to do? I am so terrified. It has completely changed me. I hate taking pictures now. I don’t like wearing my hair up. I always feel like people are staring at it. I am a mess over it. I am so sad just writing about it. I just don’t know what to do about this scar on my face!