It’s been a while. I’ve been running a hundred miles a minute. There are so many things going on in my life right now I wouldn’t even know where to start trying to explain it all. There is one thing in particular that I thought I should share though; I’ve found my voice. I’m not sure if you recall but I had been going on and on about not being able to write and having a creative mental block, well, that is all over now. I have found my voice.
Of course like most things we think we lose they are usually right in front of our faces. I discovered that I actually never lost my voice. I had abandoned it. I was trying so hard to recreate myself or “transform”, was the word I was using that I actually got lost in that. Obviously, personal growth is important however some things are not meant to be changed. God gave me my voice, and although the contents of my work will mature with me, my style is already perfect because it is not of me; it was a gift from God.
How did I make this discovery? About a week ago, I did a performance at my church and afterwards one of the members came up to me and said, “you are a poet and you don’t even know it.” At that moment it was like a light bulb went off. My poetry is told in stories. I have always had a very poetic way of writing my stories. My best poetry always pretty much wrote itself while I was getting something off my chest. It was when I started trying to write poetry that I found myself lost in trying to make words rhyme. That was my biggest mistake.
Now that I’ve rediscovered my voice opportunities are coming out of nowhere. Even better than that I am writing again! And let me tell you when I’m writing life is so much better!
XOXO
I’m back!
S. Renee
Actor/Author/Mom/Wife 