I can’t believe it’s been 10 years that you’ve been gone. Yet it seems like only yesterday that I got that call. I still think about you all the time. I wonder what your life would have been like. I can’t even imagine how many more memories we would have made. You were my best friend. You wouldn’t believe how many times I’ve wished I could just pick up the phone and tell you about my day. What I would do to hear your sweet voice of reason. There was a time when you were the only person who could calm me down. You were the only one who I could vent too, the only one who understood me – or at least you made me believe you did.
Grandma and Grandpa are gone now too. I know you all are together up in heaven. Losing Grandma was excruciating. That loss totally took my breath away. With you all gone the family is so different. Each time we loss one of you a piece of our family was broken off. I never knew we could be so distant when we all use to be so close. Time has really taken a toll on us. Life has hit us with some tough blows. You all were like the glue that sealed us together, now we are all just floating a drift. I know for sure I am not the same.
Your daughter has grown up so beautifully. She looks just like you and Leslie. Don’t you worry she knows who you are. Ashley made sure of that. I love her for not letting your memory fade. The rest of us are ok. I won’t dare complain to you because at least we still have our lives. I struggle sometimes but I promise I am going to work my hardest to make the best out of this life for us. I remember the dreams that we stayed up so many nights talking about. I’m still chasing mine and as long as I have air in my lungs I promise you I won’t give up. I’m doing this for us.
I love you even more today then I did 10 years ago. You know they say absence makes the heart grow fonder. I didn’t know it was possible for me to grow fonder of you. You were already my favorite person in the world. I love you Gregory. I miss you and I wish you could be here with us, flashing your big smile and keeping the peace in the family. I guess I will just have to take comfort in the fact that I know you are watching over me. Now, I’m going to let you get back to dancing the night away with Grandma in celebration of your birthday. I’ll wait for you to visit me in my dreams.