I apologize for my disappearance from the universe; however I have recently been through some major changes in my life.  I have wanted to share but every time I would attempt I would get brain freeze and couldn’t come up with the right words to say.  Finally, I have mustered up the courage to share something with you that I have been dealing with now for a year.

Last October I had a surgery to remove a keloid that had formed on the lower right side of my chin.  It was a rather large keloid but the position it was in made it easy to cover with makeup, but I always felt self conscience of it. Anyway, I guess as a woman any blemish on your face feels like the worst thing in the world.  So after dealing with it for a few years I’d finally decided to get it removed last year.  I went to my doctor and he recommended me to a plastic surgeon.  As soon as he mentioned plastic surgeon I realized that removing this would be a bit more serious than I originally anticipated.  But because I had already had my heart set on getting it removed I decided to go have a consultation with the surgeon and see what my options were.

After speaking with this seemingly qualified plastic surgeon and him assuring me that removing the keloid would be a pretty simple process under local anesthesia, and I’d be out the same day, I figured that was perfect and scheduled the surgery. Just as he said, everything went according to plan. I was in and out and the scar was removed.  The incision was so tiny you could barely tell anything was ever there.  I was ecstatic.

This lasted for about two months then the scar began to inflate.  It grew and grew until now it looks like I have been sliced across my face.  It is so disgusting. It is big and lumpy and ten times worse than what it looked like before I had it removed. I feel like I have been botched. Now the surgeon is saying I have to get it removed again. I don’t know what to do. I want it gone but what if he removes it again and then it grows back even worse again. Then what am I going to do? I am so terrified. It has completely changed me. I hate taking pictures now. I don’t like wearing my hair up. I always feel like people are staring at it. I am a mess over it. I am so sad just writing about it. I just don’t know what to do about this scar on my face!


2 thoughts on “Scarface

  1. I pray and hope it works out for you your beautiful with or without the scar and iam sure people are not looking at it the way you think talk to God he will help u with the decision u will make sending prayers your way.

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