Who Am I?

We are constantly evolving. Everyday I try to be a better person than I was yesterday. I admit some days I do better than others but being that I am my worst critic at the very least I make it a point to be conscious of my actions and decisions. Over the years I have developed this sort of code of conduct for my life.

  1. God First
  2. Don’t Stress
  3. Don’t Complain
  4. Don’t Quit, Commit
  5. Don’t Second Guess Yourself
  6. Love You

This code helps me stay focused on self-improvement.

As my grandmother got sicker she started to remind me of my aunt Jessie when she was losing her battle with cancer. I remember looking at my grandmother one day and literally seeing my aunt’s face on hers. I was a wreck during both experiences but I like to believe that my code got me through.

The first reason was because I put God first. I decided to trust in whatever his will was for their lives and mine.

I won’t lie and say I mastered number two. I did stress about them being sick, the normal amount of self-pity that one feels when they are watching someone close to them die. However the code kept my stress level down to the minimum.

I didn’t complain. I was actually thankful that God had set it up each time that I was able to be there in their last days. I was able to spend quality time with them and have serious heart to hearts and laugh and cry and love them more than I ever did before.

I never quit on them. No matter what the doctors said about how much time they had left, I knew that God had the final word on that so I lived with them everyday and didn’t mourn them until they were gone. I was committed to doing as much as I could in their last days to make them forget that it was their last days.

I never second-guessed my commitment; I valued every moment I had with them.

Lastly, and most importantly, I loved them because they taught me how to love, what love was and what love should be. So every single day I made sure they heard me say, I love you.

Who am I? I am a product of love. I am a believer and a fighter. I am determined and strong-willed. I am gracious and kind. I strive to live my life stress free, I never quit no matter how hard it gets I sometimes get lost but I always find my way back. I am romantic and outspoken. I’m a hard worker and I live my life wide open. I am a seeker of truth. I am constantly striving for perfection while understanding perfection will never be reached but as long as I continue to aspire to it I will be sculpting myself closely to its mold.

Who am I? I am a better Shireal Renee than I was yesterday!


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