We are constantly evolving. Everyday I try to be a better person than I was yesterday. I admit some days I do better than others but being that I am my worst critic at the very least I make it a point to be conscious of my actions and decisions. Over the years I have developed this sort of code of conduct for my life.
- God First
- Don’t Stress
- Don’t Complain
- Don’t Quit, Commit
- Don’t Second Guess Yourself
- Love You
This code helps me stay focused on self-improvement.
As my grandmother got sicker she started to remind me of my aunt Jessie when she was losing her battle with cancer. I remember looking at my grandmother one day and literally seeing my aunt’s face on hers. I was a wreck during both experiences but I like to believe that my code got me through.
The first reason was because I put God first. I decided to trust in whatever his will was for their lives and mine.
I won’t lie and say I mastered number two. I did stress about them being sick, the normal amount of self-pity that one feels when they are watching someone close to them die. However the code kept my stress level down to the minimum.
I didn’t complain. I was actually thankful that God had set it up each time that I was able to be there in their last days. I was able to spend quality time with them and have serious heart to hearts and laugh and cry and love them more than I ever did before.
I never quit on them. No matter what the doctors said about how much time they had left, I knew that God had the final word on that so I lived with them everyday and didn’t mourn them until they were gone. I was committed to doing as much as I could in their last days to make them forget that it was their last days.
I never second-guessed my commitment; I valued every moment I had with them.
Lastly, and most importantly, I loved them because they taught me how to love, what love was and what love should be. So every single day I made sure they heard me say, I love you.
Who am I? I am a product of love. I am a believer and a fighter. I am determined and strong-willed. I am gracious and kind. I strive to live my life stress free, I never quit no matter how hard it gets I sometimes get lost but I always find my way back. I am romantic and outspoken. I’m a hard worker and I live my life wide open. I am a seeker of truth. I am constantly striving for perfection while understanding perfection will never be reached but as long as I continue to aspire to it I will be sculpting myself closely to its mold.
Who am I? I am a better Shireal Renee than I was yesterday!