After five years, three months and eight-teen days I have finally reached a new milestone in my writing career, I finished my first novel! I have worked so hard to get to this day. This was by far the most challenging goal to reach that I have set for myself to date. Now, 507 manuscript pages later I can finally say it’s done!
This book has taken over such a huge piece of my life. It has taken me on a roller coaster ride of emotions. I have suffered from sleep deprivation and coming from me a person who doesn’t sleep much in the first place please imagine what that must have taken to make me sleep deprived. I have felt unworthy, I have doubted myself as an artist, my self-esteem began to drop, I’ve underestimated my own abilities, missed self-imposed deadline after deadline but never once did I ever consider quitting. Giving up was simply not an option.
I don’t often feel proud of myself but after accomplishing this goal I think I am. I know this feeling won’t last long because there is still so much more to do. But I will allow myself to take a deep breath and appreciate this moment while it last.