Watching Over My Life From A Distance

There is a song by Deborah Cox called, “How did you get here?” For the longest time I use to say that song was the theme song for my life.  But lately that song has begun to fade because I know exactly how I got to where I am now.  There is no need in playing the victim.  I made my choices, I knew right from wrong.  Yes, there may be some kind of divine reasoning behind why I chose the paths that I did but no matter how you slice the cake you can still get diabetes from the sugar.

About ten years ago I looked into a mirror and swore to myself my destiny was so close I could touch it.  But if your story’s already written then why would you have to reach out and touch it?  Aren’t you just it?  Everything that you do in your life on any given day at every moment is you living your destiny.  It’s just a matter of you accepting your truth.  You are your destiny; every day that you are here on this earth you are living the story. What I am noticing now is that has always been so unbelievably clear is that your destiny is what you make it.

I wake up everyday chasing these visions that I can’t get out of my head. I’ve been chasing them for so long that I don’t even know how not to.  I over think every decision I make because I am terrified to do something to throw off the balance or distract the journey.   My fear comes from past mistakes.  I know that I’ve done things that have taken me the long way but today I take one way streets, no u-turns, stay away from traffic jams and keep my gas tank of full.  I know now I have to treat my life like an endangered species.  Protect it like a rare jewel because as far as I know I only get one shot at this.  If I don’t write this story correctly then what does that say of my destiny?  What does that say of me?

If fate is the end than I am watching my life from a distance ensuring that I reach it the way I see it in my dreams. God is my overseer but I am the gatekeeper of my life.  I am the one who he gave the free will.  My sixth sense is watching, my instincts leading me, checking all the dark corners, putting visitors through metal detectors and making sure I travel safe. For I am greatness so every single day I have to live my life this way.   “How did you get here?” can no longer be my theme song now the lyrics I will sing are, “I was here I’ve lived, I’ve loved.  I was here I’ve did, I’ve done everything that I wanted and it was more than I thought it would be I will leave my mark so everyone will know I was here!” – Beyonce

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