I don’t have it all together. I sincerely wish I did. I always thought that I would by this time in my life but boy how wrong was I. I’m find myself thinking about this because today in church the message was about being patient and giving god time to take you through everything you need to go through before putting you where he wants you. It was one of those messages that felt like the pastor was speaking directly to me.
There is a gospel song that says, when I look back over my life and I think things over I can truly say that I’ve been blessed I have a testimony… My testimony is a novel, many novels. I know that I have been in some situations where I would question gods intentions I found myself asking why a lot. Now looking back I can honestly say I understand that those whys happened for a reason. I look at those situations now as learning and growing experiences.
As I continue to find my place in this life I am trying to keep myself covered in prayer because no matter how much I appreciate the struggle for the lessons at the end of the day it’s still a struggle. I have to believe that the light is close. I truly hope that I am not overlooking some direction that god is giving me that is hindering my growth. I’m fighting forward one battle at a time with hopes of becoming the woman I see in my dreams in this life. I have to believe it’s all going to work out and even the impossible will become possible and I know through the grace of god – they can!