I write from the heart

When I originally decided to start write my short stories it was because I have been feeling anxious about my writing.  I have some major things going on that I have not been able to share about my work so I needed to find another outlet thus I decided to publish my short stories online.  I put a lot of thought into what kind of stories they would be and in typical Shireal Renee fashion decided they would be love stories – a series of love stories that were all connected through the use of the same characters.  As I began writing, You Better Breathe, like most of my writing my hands took over and created something I totally didn’t expect.   The story of London’s grandmother being sick is directly related to what I am going through right now.

I never intended to write about this situation with my grandmother.  I just sat down and started writing and she was all I could think of.   So I let it out.  As I was writing my emotions took over me and I started bawling in tears.  I was crying so hard that I began to lose my breath. As I was typing the words my hands were shaking to the point that I had to stop and compose myself.   I didn’t even know how much I had been holding inside of me.  I tried to push everything that has been going on to the back of my mind because I choose to remain optimistic, accepting what the doctors and my family have been saying is not how I operate, I operate by faith, that is the only way I know how to survive.

I was afraid to publish this story because it is so close to me and frankly I have no idea how I am going to end it.  I guess I am going to have to just write blindly and let my hands lead the way.   One thing is for sure; this is my ultimate love story!  Anything dealing with my family is coming from a place of unconditional love, love without measure, all-consuming love – that is how we love each other, hardcore.

I look forward to sharing the rest of this story with you and as always I pray that you can relate and find hope and healing in my words.

XOXO

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