Emotional

I’m having a Carl Thomas moment.

Yes, I’m emotional.  I don’t know why.  I have been feeling this way since I got back from Mexico.  I’m just a ball of emotions and it’s so unlike me.  I don’t like it.  I wish there was an emotional switch that I could just turn off.  Maybe that’s not a good idea because I’d probably never turn it back on.  It’s bad enough that when someone really gets me upset I can cut him or her off without another thought.  If I had an emotion switch – God help me.

I feel like I’m running out of time.  I feel like I have so much to do and I don’t have enough time to do it in.  Suddenly all my goals that haven’t been met and my plans that have not come to fruition yet are sitting on my shoulders and wearing me down.  It’s heavy too.  Just typing these words makes me want to cry.  I have so much family but I just feel alone.   I need to move back to Hartford maybe the distance is getting to me.  I’m use to being able to run to my aunt’s house whenever I needed.  It’s not as easy being almost an hour away now.  I also miss my mom.  What I would do to hug my mommy right now.  Ugh.

Well I’m off.  Not having a good day.

XOXO