“The Things Inside Me”: Reflections

I started writing, “The Things Inside Me”, when I was 13 years old.  When I go back and read some of the poetry it’s like I can hear my inexperience but I can also feel my sincere attempt to express how I am feeling. I’ve always been obsessed with love and pain.  My poetry is heavily driven by emotions.  In my youth I didn’t write about politics and social change I wrote about things that affected me in my personal life on a daily basis.

I found this quote that I wrote in the book,

Learning about love that you can’t breathe without and pain that takes your breath away…(pg. 106).

That was who I was for so long.  Always searching for this great fairy tale love or suffering through some unbelievable pain.  Now life has changed that.  I find it hard for me to love or hurt too hard.  Sometimes it’s like I have used all my emotions up and now I am this hollow shell of cold.  It’s not even about fear its about just not having it in me anymore.  It’s really unfortunate.  But have learned that all experiences are blessings and lessons.  To have faith in God is to have faith in love.  So I am faithful that this can be…Love.