Detox: Day 15

On Tuesday March 25th I stepped on the scale and got the shock of my life.  I had allowed myself to get bigger then I have ever imagined myself to be.  At 5’1″ I weighed 180 pounds, I was obese.  I was ashamed of myself and to dumb it all the way down of how I felt I was flat-out disgusted.  I made a decision I was not going allow myself to spiral any more out of control then I had already gotten.  I was fed up, I got focused and with the support of #teamfitandfab decided to change my life.  Today, Tuesday April 15th, three weeks after that weigh in I stepped on the scale and it read 170.  I am down 10 pounds.  Don’t get me wrong I am not getting too excited about this.  I have said all this so that I can remind myself where I was, how far I have to go but being proud that I am headed in the right direction.

Three weeks is and important time for me because in the past any time I would start a weight loss routine I would always quit by the third week.  That is why this time I have to push through this week like no body’s business.  I feel myself slacking a little I’ve been having some bad days but I will not be defeated! That is why this time I am so focused on educating myself and really turning into a lifestyle and not focusing on it being a diet or expecting to see results over night.  I didn’t gain all that weight over night so I know it is going to take some time to get it all off.

An important moment in my weight loss is when my cousin Dareena #teamfitandfab had us all take photos of ourselves so that we can see our progress.  Let me tell you that photo opened my eyes like you wouldn’t believe.  I was so appalled with how far I had let myself go.  I was embarrassed because if I was disgusted looking at myself I couldn’t even imagine what anyone else may have felt about me.  And yes I know the only opinion that matters the most is mine but nevertheless it was terrible.

That picture burned itself into my brain like the memory of the death of a close relative.  So now every time I think I don’t want to workout or I want to unnecessarily pig out or give up I look at that photo as a reminder of what I do not want to be.   I’m telling you this worked wonders for me.  Between the cleanse and #teamfitandfab I am learning so much about being healthy and making smart decisions.  One thing I’ve learned is about curving cravings.  In the past every time I’ve tried to lose weight I would literally try to cut myself off of everything.  I would hold out as long as I could then I when I would finally give in I would over eat.  Now I understand when I have a craving I have to just fulfill it right away and understand I will have to workout a little harder the next day.

This is a journey people and I am just at the beginning but I am running for my life.  Being alive is not enough it is about quality of life.  And I want to live my life to the fullest. Striving, fighting and excelling!  We are all in this together.  Stay strong #teamfitandfab

XOXO

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