Today was up and down. It started out really well, was up at 6:30 made my shake and off to the gym by 7:30. I like the gym in the morning it’s quiet. I was able to get in a full workout before I had to get home for the 9am portion of my cleanse. When I got home I did some work then I started feeling down. I got on the scale against my better judgement and I was up a pound and a half. I knew I shouldn’t have gotten on the scale because I am supposed to weigh in on Tuesdays but for some reason I just couldn’t resist it today. Why did I do that? My day went down hill from there.
I spent the rest of the day depressed and sulking about my gained pound. I pin pointed it to the other night when I ate those loaded mashed potatoes. I knew I shouldn’t have indulged. I mean it’s not like I have any room for error. Now I have to work extra hard this week to meet my goal for Tuesday. I hate how hard it is to lose weight and how easy it is to gain. I wish I had better self-control. I wish that I didn’t hate looking at myself in the mirror. Today I wanted to smash the mirror and that scale. I wish I would have caught myself before I gained so much weight. My self-esteem has never been so low.
I decided to do two-a-day gym trips for the rest of the month. That along with my cleanse should speed up this weight loss. I have to get rid of these extra pounds so I can start feeling like myself again. 😦