After being up all night again I finally crashed around 9am in a panic. I looked at the calendar and realized that the show is now next week. I started feeling all kinds of nervous. A million questions started to flood my mind and needless to say I fell asleep with a migraine headache. Don’t get me wrong I trust God. When I am on stage I feel completely connected to him so it’s not that I fear failing, I guess I just fear the unknown.
You just never know how a show is going to turn out. It doesn’t matter how many times you’ve done it, every show is always different, the audience, you as a performer, the space, the energy – it’s all different. I guess not being able to know exactly what is going to happen and how it will turn out is getting to me the most. The fact that we haven’t done this show in CT since 2011 is really making me crazy. It may as well have never been done here before. I just want it to be perfect if there is such a thing as a perfect show.
AHHHHHH!!! God help me stay sane for the next 12 days.
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