How Did I Get Here???

If you had a theme song for your life, what would it be? For the last couple of years the theme song to my life has been a song called, “How did you get here” by Deborah Cox. I remix it though and say ‘how did I get here’ but it is still her song in my head. It rings in my brain at least twice a day, sometimes as soon as I wake up in the morning.

This has become my song because when I was 16 I saw my life completely different from what it actually is today. I thought I would have been on Oprah at least twice, had at least 2 number 1 best sellers and at least 1 Oscar nod, hosted the MTV music awards and been in at least 5 blockbuster movies. But to say the least I have not accomplished any of those things yet. Sometimes I wake up feeling like I must have went wrong somewhere, taken a wrong turn, made a couple bad decisions, just f*&C#$ up all together.

As a new year approaches all I can think about it how to make a drastic change in my life to find my way on the path that I am supposed to be on. Living the life that I have seen for myself since I can remember. I don’t want to wake up 50 still wondering ‘how did I get here’ and why? I want to be able to say ‘I finally made it’, ‘I am exactly where I am supposed to be’.

I just want to be the me I see in my dreams…

Psalm’s 25 1:5
To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul,
In you I trust, Oh my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.
No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame
But they who are treacherous without excuse.
Show me your ways O Lord
Teach me your paths;
Guide me in your truth
and teach me for you are God my savior
And my hope is in you, all day long.

–“Help me be the me I see in my dreams.” SR