As we get closer to the Encore performances of “Wide Open” I start to feel the nerves start to build up again. I really don’t know what to do with myself. This time it is different. I keep trying to look back and see how in the world I did it last time and now how am I going to do it again.
I thank God for all the support I have gotten. Just Wednesday I was on Fox 61’s Stan Simpson show where I was formally introduced to the Mayor of Hartford Pedro Segarra and CT most well known sports broadcaster Scot Gray.
It was an exciting moment. It is amazing the places God is placing me and the people I am meeting just because I am doing what he has put in my heart to do. I trust that I will make it to the highest level possible as long as I continue to trust God and follow what my heart tells me to do.
As much as I trust that I am on the right path…let me tell you how it is so scary the “known, unknown” is what I call it. You know your visions but the path is unknown because you have never traveled it before. Although I have already done “Wide Open” and many felt like it was a successful show it still does not take the pressure off doing it again, and this time I have to do it TWICE! I know I can do it, but again it is still new, my words are still new, this experience is still new. The only thing that is not new is the emotions…they are very well known. So I am trusting that God will bless me to be able to deliver a powerful, emotional show to all who comes out. I know that I am not at all in control of what is happening or what is about to happen. All I can do is be as prepared as possible. Even that has been tough this time around.
I have been so wrapped up on trying to make the show and the presentation of the show bigger and better that I feel like I am falling short on the preperation of the performance. It is really tough being an executive producer and star of a show. I find myself more focused on the business aspect of the show then the performance and I absolutely can not let that happen.
So God I ask you to turn my butterfly’s into focus! Please God train my mind, control my appitite for life and clear my nerves. Help me to understand I can only do what I can and let you do the rest. I am asking this prayer with the most sincere plead I can send up. I need you right now God! Help me to focus!!!! Even if the butterfly’s never go away let me fly amoungst them.