Destiny???

Do you believe in fate??  I do.  I think…I really don’t know what I believe when it comes to that.  I do believe in God, and your time line being predetermined, but fate…hummm, just don’t know.

As long as I could remember I have known that my career would be in entertainment.  As far as acting, well, I came out the womb a character and I have been changing it up every since.  But I am human and even though I have accomplished some things that some people may think is something, I don’t feel the same way.

Actually I feel like I am so far behind.  I work and work and work so that  I can not focus on the fact that I am not where I want to be at in my career yet.  I always thought by this time in my life I would be further.  I know that I am really hard on myself but if I’m not, who will be? Plus, being in business for myself has taught me nothing is ever good enough.  You always have to be getting better, working on yourself, and perfecting your craft because while your sleeping someone else is up working…trust me I know – I am that someone.

I just have this vision in my head that keeps me up all night.  I can not eat, sleep or even leave that house sometimes because it keeps me so indulged in it.  I have to have it all the time.  My work is everything to me and I can not fail, it is not an option.

So here is what I feel about fate or destiny.  I think…I aint afraid of you.  I am gonna ride this baby till the wheels fall off.  And if God calls me home before I have conquered you at least I know I went out like a soldier fighting and screaming to make that vision in my head my reality – and that’s my destiny!